I really don't know.
I wish I did but I don't.
I've felt more or less horrible for the past.. 3, maybe 4 weeks. I thought it'd get easier when the final exams were over but it didn't. I think it's getting even worse. I keep repeating every mistake I made in those exams in my head, I keep blaming myself for now having prepared enough. And then I feel just empty. All empty. Before I start feeling horrible again. And then comes the crying.
I don't feel much of a worthy human being anymore.
I did the BDI test again today. I got a score of 27. Suggests that I have symptoms of severe depression.
I don't know.
I feel like talking to someone but then again, what would I say? "Hey, this is me. I feel ugly and worthless and inside my head there's just a big bunch of thoughts waiting to make me cry when I get back home from here." Sounds ridiculous. How could I ever tell someone how I actually feel? I'd only end up feeling stupid. There are people with actual problems out there. I should get a grip.
I'm tired. Like I've been for the past 4 weeks. And it just won't go away.
I want to sleep forever.
hei, oikeesti jos sä haluut mennä puhuu jollekkin esim psykologille tai kuraattorille. Mene. oikeesti. tbh mä käyn, vaik aattelin et ei mul oo mitään selitettävää, mut sit ku sinne menee se ammattilainen huomaa kyl et mitä kuuluu vaik ei ite tiiä. En kadu et käyn siel, vaik välil on sellanen olo et vien vaan sen aikaa muilta, koska se silti autaa mua.
VastaaPoistaSitä paitsi veronmaksajan kannalta, on hyvä ennaltaehkästä suuren suurta henkistä huonovointisuutta. Jos menee puhumaan vast sit ku tosi tosi tosi paha tilanne, se vie enemmän verottajien rahaa. näin mulle sanottiin.
anygays, suosittelen jo ihan sen takii et sust tuntuu jo et haluut mennä puhumaan, vaikka et tietäs mitä sanoa. :)
Tsemppii <3
t.eeva :)